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If you want a new beginning...If you want a new beginning, consider investing in a mechanized suit of armor

Streets shattered as giant robots
strode in the city's center to duel.
They aimed pulse guns,
hit everything but each other.
That was the day I knew I had to move.

A limb of steel and wire
fell and smashed the garage.
Salvaged my old journal,
plans for a new design.

Papers flying out of skyscrapers
reminded of drawings you sent.
I stopped by your house;
in your absence left a letter.

Finally, about to evacuate,
an eyelaser wrecked the highway.
Border of concrete and fire for miles.
Sorry, right now I'm trapped in my fears.

One day I'll sneak into a
ProgressionWe matched our steps in dance precise.
His lead lacked flaws, I followed quick.
The music flowed like wine. The shine
was blinding. Sweat, a lifetime's work?

A friend who glided perfect once,
divorced. Her dull porcelain cup
in hand. Some talk of law and bills.
Not the stars' motion, only ours.
SmilesNot even polite, meaningless words.
On these bright, clear days
she's outside.
Moving as if at a playground.
No wave, no "hi,"
certainly no "how are you."
Only a forced, slight smile
when I wave and ask how she is.

Attention might be a game.
It might always be "I'm interested."
But sometimes my grandfather comes to mind.
Sitting alone indoors with bad breath
and books about the apocalypse.
When after eight years I visited,
a bright smile,
eager to be delighted.

Maybe family are the friends you have
because few know how to be friends.
The Stars are Dead Tonight.Dear Christ!
What a sight to see at night.
There is nothing.
A nihilist night-
A void that goes on for leagues.

The stars are dead tonight.
My lamp is lost amid
The deep sea dark of
That great abyss above me.
It reflects my spirit.

Those stars have hidden themselves
In shame. They will not
Look at us, our little mess.
I miss them. The moon
Is forced to watch us
In horror. I pity her.

The stars are dead tonight.
goodbye sweet nightmares                                            goodbye sweet nightmares

goodbye sweet agony,that which has caused my heart to bleed, I am finally rid of your fever
others have spoken against you my sweet love that I believed so tirelessly faithfully remaining strong within your grasp
once I opened my mind and closed my heart with anothers kiss you began to vanish from my mind and it was over, I awaken
does it still sting for you? when you lie with another lover that will only use you for what values you claim to have hidden away
bring them, those who falsely use your heart in contempt, to justice, though you are gone from my heart I still
With Me NowIt so feels like you are with me right now,
When it's time to give up,
Time to let go,
Leave yourself with me,
And I with you.

You seem like a dream,
Cause I knew I'd never see,
A creature as beautiful as you,
Now that we are here tonight,
I can see how I could disbelieve.

When we are alone,
You are with me always,
At least it feels that way now,
I've given my love and my life,
Take it with open, loving arms.

So far,
Yet so close,
Apart,
But never nearer,
It so feels like you are here right now.
Welcome BackIt's time you started listening to yourself,
And all the crap you think people believe,
Those lies and pretty things,
That come off your tongue.

When will you realize that nobody needs this?
Harsh words and crude insults,
Meaning nothing,
But clearly making the point.

Your nonsense comes across crystal clear,
Yet you say it is all in jest,
Never intending to really hurt,
Another Kodak "just kidding" moment.

You are a joke and a fraud,
So welcome back to the circus.
I'll forgive you                                         I'll forgive you

I'll find you whispering in his ear, smiling at him as if you never met me, I'll forgive every second of pain
love is a complicated thing I can never seem to let go, I feel you in every inch of my being, you still make my heart ache
lieing awake wishing you'd call, knowing you never will, those days are gone, true as it is I'll always keep you close to me
free your mind and know I'll always be here, I'll grieve over you as I always do, but I'll forgive you because it's worth every second being near you
otherwise I would die knowing there isn't a ghost of a chance not even in my d
MusicThat loud crap blares
from speakers large and small.
Can't understand the words -
just dull thuds, synthetic sounds,
style of dress I'd almost laugh at.

Almost. "Deviant," then in my mind, "thugs;"
no fun being scared of everyone younger.
I remember how my wife's family
talked about me before she was my wife.
Nat King Cole and Sinatra played all too clear.
Too much vinegar on the salad.

One dinner I stared at a candle
flickering on the table.
The room had more than enough light.
In discrete moments the flame struggled.
My wife remembers the slight smirk I wore,
bright in its own way.
obsessed with you                                              obsessed with you

obsessed with your every breath, with every bat of your eyes, your smile never fails to make me weak at the knees
be it a simple hello or a whole night spent under your constant attention, I can only wish you would stay a night longer
so here I am found sighing though I've been reminded ever so often that this will only cause me agony, your always on my mind
exactly as it should be, as I wish it would always be, your arms around me, embracing me as I could never dream
seconds pass and it feels like I never woke up until I see your eyes meeting mine, taking my breath away as
Big Silver Moon SonnetWhen I look up at the big silver moon,
I can once again see your lovely face.
To think that I would see such a sweet boon,
It puts my heart into a velvet case.
That summer we spent in each other's arms,
The rolling around in the grassy plains.
I fell for you and all of your sweet charms,
And you fell for me like cool April rains.
That's why our love will never cease to be,
But will go down the fast flowing river.
You always send me waves of ecstasy,
Which gives me such a heartening shiver.
Together we will leave these lands unscathed,
By these cool waters by which we were bathed.
love is forevermaterial objects can be lost or replaced
they are easily destroyed or damaged
why buy me these weak things?
why not just give me what cant be replaced?
give me your heart and you shall receive mine

i can get a house or car at any time
but to get your heart is once in a lifetime
i can get another necklace or ring any time
but to get your heart is once in a lifetime
if you do give me your heart i shan't break it

my heart is yours and yours is mine
together forever, forever bonded
so please don't lie to me
lie to me and my heart will tear from you
love is forever don't waste what might be your only chance
wont stopThe blood won’t stop pouring,
Pouring from my open wounds,
Still flowing,
Down my arm,
It won’t stop,
Should I be worried?
I’m still bleeding.
AngelStanding there; looking lost,
At peace.
Her silver wings glittering in the moonlight.
Brown hair that flows down her back.
Shining in the moonlight,
Hoping, waiting,
To find someone.
 
Her eyes look kind,
Brown and green:
She is very welcoming,
And soft,
But she just stands there,
Hoping,
She stands there waiting:
To find someone,
Someone who cares.
I Tell You That I Love YouI tell you that I love you everyday
I tell you that I love you in so many ways
I tell you that I love you because it's true
I tell you that I love you to remind you
I tell you that I love you while you're far away
But I don't want to tell you that I love you today
I don't want to tell you that I love you anymore
Because words cannot express the love I have for you
I want to show you that I love you way more
I want to show you how much, how real, how true
Because showing that I love you means so much more than anything
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Birdlike the soul findsFrown of frustration from him;
she savaged the self crafted.
A drop of sweat almost hit the ground,
but the feathery arm was quite a surprise.
Perched, it was no struggle to take off,
and I met you while making loops in the air.

Highly placed,
transfixed by the refinement of brick, wood.
Then, gliding between buildings,
the power of the draft,
the grandeur of building.
Our day ended atop a telephone pole,
seeing the bright orange and rosy pink fade away.

We don't have a song.
All we have is a natural strength
from an unnatural happening.
You almost left your burden in tears
before you were on that skyscraper,
searching.
Frustration with dA"Thanks for the watch,"
then nothing else.
Polite, meaningless words.
Of course we know
not every stroke can be stared at,
not every noun can be analyzed.

Not every one can be friends.

I remember giving treats
to an old, deaf, ailing dog.
I remember bearing its smell
in order to pet it.
A cat saw this. The cat would
jump in front of me,
trying to get my leg to rub
against its fur.

Animals may not know to be grateful,
but they don't take for granted
what is good.
SummerRipples – murky pond -
fanning out against the dark
the color of chalk
Kobayashi Issa: Don't worry, spidersHappy Mother's Day

Don't worry, spiders
Kobayashi Issa (tr. Robert Hass, from The Essential Haiku)

Don't worry, spiders,
I keep house
casually.

Comment:

1. I spared many a spider growing up. Mom said spiders killed other pesky insects and shouldn't be smashed promptly. They could be helpers for keeping the house clean, if it weren't for those webs they tend to create.

I still spare spiders for the most part. (Admittedly, I don't think I've ever lived anywhere spotless.)

2. Hass makes two points relevant to our consideration of the poem. First, there is probably a hidden seasonal reference. This is about summer, where housekeepers are
We see the sky where it is skylessNot the crystal with the bluish tint,
nor the dark wisps rising from cigars.
Another realm entirely. There,
day ends in royal purple, fiery orange.
Gray walls hold those colors for an instant.
Air places dew drops upon grass,
as if to say the world begins afresh.
Birds fly together, each supporting the other.

Now the sound of change striking the sidewalk,
the smell of dirty pigeons collected.
Noting the white of the closed blinds of hospital rooms.
EyesLike a mosquito,
her eyes spoke hunger, leaving
only freezing blood.

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Rejection perceived

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The feeling that I was rejected did not come from any particular words. It was her body language, her visible discomfort - despite the beautiful sunny day it was, despite our conversation earlier, despite my caring for her - that made my heart collapse upon itself.

I thought we were getting somewhere. Apparently I am the only one with feelings when we communicate.

When I sigh now, it is not a sigh that comes from mental exhaustion, or from the knowledge of tedium. It ultimately comes from that physical feeling, that one where the walls of the heart are thinning and the blood right there is aching and the organ itself is rolling into a ball and shrinking.

Blood, in other parts of the body, wanders elsewhere as it will, and something, perhaps a spirit, is released from inside me into the air, joining the nothingness it always was.
:iconakarra:
From an early blog of mine that was meant to be more "artsy:" [link]

Style is intentional. No, I do not feel this way now. Not even sure how I felt then: focus was on writing down an experience that took a few seconds. And yes, our friendship was going very well. She told someone later she was surprised she wasn't asked out by me.

For [link] - hope this gets you writing.
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~Serelenntidude Jun 1, 2012
wow, you're very talented, I hope I can pick up a thing or two from these
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~OorenylinoO May 30, 2012
thank u 4 making my day :)
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*Phyllipa May 27, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This really touched me :)
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~JaideIris Apr 30, 2012   General Artist
I really liked this, especially like the last line.
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*Lewanut Mar 27, 2012
This is very well written. Not only does it pass the basic tests of readability (itself an achievement on the internet), but the style is very well crafted. I will definitely be checking out that blog.

Okay, I've had a chance to read a few of your blog posts, and I find myself agreeing with a lot of what you write. Bro fist/hoof.
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=carpenoctem410 Mar 24, 2012  Student General Artist
This is a wonderful piece. I especially love the way you describe the "physical feeling". It touches me :)
You have a great writing talent :hug:
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*akarra Mar 25, 2012  Student Writer
Many thanks for your compliments! Your visual art is quite excellent.

I've started blogging about my adventures in trying to write poetry. If you've got a favorite poet or writer, let me know. I want to try and blog about them.
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=carpenoctem410 Mar 26, 2012  Student General Artist
My favorite poets are all German :giggle: and I love E.A.Poe, although I haven't read all too much.
But you really should check out some Goethe and R.M.Rilke, I guess there will be many great translations around :nod:

Who's your favorite? :)
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Mood: Joy *akarra Mar 26, 2012  Student Writer
I've read a lot of Rilke both in translation and in German. I'm no good with the Sonnets to Orpheus, though.

The poet I recommend most nowadays is the former poet laureate of the United States, Kay Ryan. Her work is short, accessible, thoughtful: [link]
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Mood: Affection ~CJWilde Mar 22, 2012  Student Writer
I adored this piece, and it did indeed get me writing. It was so touching and poignant that I honestly felt every little crack and shudder of your heart during this; I hope that you are happier now, because I featured you here: [link] and I hope to see more prose from you soon. :aww:
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